Hey! So I’m a bit of a control freak & really struggle with giving my worries/doubts/fears/feelings over to God. A part of me is scared that maybe i’m not good enough/worthy for God to take care of. I really want to trust God fully – but have no idea how to do that? Can you help please?
Believe it or not, you are already well on the way to working through this thing. The reason I say that is because you are aware there is an underlying issue. If someone said “I struggle with trust God, help”, the first thing to do would be to identify the root cause (the “why”) so we could deal with that. You have already done that step, which is both critical and difficult.
The way you come by a revelation about yourself is by being brave enough to be honest. You need to keep going forward done that path. What makes you think that you aren’t good enough for God to take care of you?
God doesn’t take care of the people who are good enough to earn taking care of. Jesus made it clear over and over that He came for people who were messes, sinners, not people who have (or at least think they have) it all together. I think this attitude comes from the same place as being a control freak, which is a place of insecurity.
Insecurity is a form of self obsession. Even if you are always thinking about how you are not good enough, you are always thinking about you. Take the advice of Hebrews 12:2 which says “Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our face”. Search the scriptures for things about Jesus’s character and it will make it much easier to trust HIm. Maybe get journal and right done one reason everyday that Jesus is trustworthy. Focusing on Jesus’s trustworthiness, instead of you feelings on unworthiness, can flip the whole thing.
The other thing to know is that this is a process. It is kind of impossible to “trust God with everything.” It is much better to make you goal trusting God with one thing at a time as they come up. This also makes your controlling anxieties an ally instead of an enemy. When you start feeling that twitch, you know it is time to go to God with that thing. It is a work in progress, and you are well on your way.
-Matt from The Bridge