Obedience just seems like a carrot in front of a rabbit. Are my sins really keeping me from what I really want? Some part of me knows I’m only being obedient to get what I want.
A lot of us have been given the idea of Jesus as the school principal. He is around to make sure everybody is following the rules and you really don’t want to get his attention or get called into the office. You play by the rules, He will be cool and if you don’t He will crush you.
That is not biblical though. The professional analogy that Jesus makes about himself is that of a doctor (Mark 2:17). If you had a disease that was destroying you, and a doctor gave you prescriptions and a regimen on how to get healthy, you wouldn’t be thinking “I am only doing this to get what I want”. You are getting what you want, life, and there is nothing wrong that. Obedience to God is the way to get to that life, not an arbitrary set of rules.
Your Sin is that disease, and it is keeping you from getting what you want. Because sin is a cheap substitute for what you want. You want to be known and loved, pornography is a cheap substitute. You want a life that is exciting and adventurous, drama is a cheap substitute for that. You want to walk with God and have a relationship with Him, rules and judgement are a cheap substitute for that.
Sin is not getting you what you want, and it is not what God wants. Yielding your life to Jesus gets you what you actually want, and it is what His heart wants. The only reason someone chooses the Sin is the pride of thinking that, even though it is killing them, at least it is their idea. There is no upside beyond that.
-Matt from The Bridge